what its like?

bug b16b · 05-19-2009, 05:33 PM

i would like 2 see u in my shoes...

what i have is really bad because if i dont treat it now i will die in at year... what if u you where 20 and the doctor said im sorry but your have canser but its not like a lot of other cancers, this is an aggressive type of cancer... and you go ok, what is it then???? then the doctor said you only have one year to live, you might not see 21. And the two of you are just sitting there... i said what the fuck can i do because i dont wanna die yet... then the doctor said you have 2 do chemo therapy and you have 2 start 2day... i was in my work truck i just got out of work like i had no clue it was like this.. think about that.. so then he told me I have three options... 1. live your life with this cancer and start getting really really sick and die at 20/21... 2. put a bullet in your head... or 3. your give one hole year of your life, and ill make you fine... i went with option 3...

but what i didnt know is how fucked up this chemo shit really is... like this shit is bad really bad. all i can do is just sit back and relax and go for a long ass ride for the next year... but its not really a year it everyday. Everyday i wake up in madd pain, everyday i feel like shit, everyday i just sit here all by my self in my room and think about everything, im by my self, imagine living every second of the day like that? like if you asked me what 2day is i would tell u i dont know? if your asked me what time its is? i would say it dont matter 2 me.. if you asked me the month.. i would have 2 stop and think really really hard and the only reason i could tell u is because of what stage im in with the chemo... and on bad on the bad days i ask my self is this worth it? but i say yes it is just cuz i wanna make my life that much better when i get over all this...

look at it like this... could you look back in your life and remember an entire year of events? like every second of a year... no probably not but i will...

this is my life for the next year i have no job, i cant go out, i cant sleep i have 2 sit here and go on a long ass ride... theres nothing else i can do...

this changed my whole prospective on life... this shit shows you/me how small we really are... like i look at life totally different now... and its like i can change myself in the best kinda way but we all have 2 change cuz this shit is no joke... like 2 wake up everyday thats good but not for me for all of us.. the world need 2 wake up and see how small we really are and see what we are doing because we are really fucking up this world and its getting worse and worse everyday... and no one sees how we fucked up this world is bad look at all the shit we do... but its going 2 get worse if we dont stop and change for the best...

no one really know what its like in my shoes, all i can do is stop and talk with people and it really could make a difference's... hit me up if u want...

this is a B20MEET
http://www.b20vtec.com/forums/meets-...-s-cancer.html

hip-hop

hondablues · 05-19-2009, 05:38 PM

get better soon bro

joking4life · 05-19-2009, 05:38 PM

damn!!!!
sorry to hear hope u get better.......
keep ur head uppppp

melvin · 05-19-2009, 08:35 PM

hope u get better soon man and ur not alone just talk to the force who has given u ur life just belive that this is only a test youll pas it if u study and do well belive it+

***sicsoul*** · 05-19-2009, 08:39 PM

you just made me cry bro..
god bless you....
be strong.!

***chubbie*** · 05-19-2009, 08:43 PM

Quote:

Originally Posted by melvin

hope u get better soon man and ur not alone just talk to the force who has given u ur life just belive that this is only a test youll pas it if u study and do well belive it+

i have to agree 100% bro. my friend that ive know for 9 yrs. had cancer idk how it happened but after a few months/year maybe it started decreasing until it disapeared. there is a god bro. i hope everything gets better, ill pray for you every night man. may god be with you. just dont be all depressed bro, just makes shit much more difficult

Critic4Du3ce · 05-19-2009, 09:04 PM

damn man hope everything works out for you

95egcoupe · 05-19-2009, 09:10 PM

Quote:

Originally Posted by lilsicsoul

you just made me cry bro..
God bless you....
Be strong.!

.......2

melvin · 05-19-2009, 09:11 PM

bump for bug b16b my prayer is with you and i think this thread should be a sticky

I hope everything turns out good and for you to keep in contact with us as much as possible

If there is anything I can do please let me kno

and if you dont mine what type of cancer do you have?

you can pm me with the answer if u want bro if not then thats koo too
id just like to do some searching on it

Keep ur head up and keep on fighting for you and also those who love you

bug b16b · 05-19-2009, 09:20 PM

Quote:

Originally Posted by chubbie

i have to agree 100% bro. my friend that ive know for 9 yrs. had cancer idk how it happened but after a few months/year maybe it started decreasing until it disapeared. there is a god bro. i hope everything gets better, ill pray for you every night man. may god be with you. just dont be all depressed bro, just makes shit much more difficult

na im not depressed not at all... i know this shit hurts... but what can i do nothing i wanna live forever like i know im str8 my head if cleen... i wanna do something big when i get out... lol and im going 2 try really hard

05-19-2009, 05:33 PM	#1 (permalink)
bug b16b Senior Member Join Date: Mar 2007 Location: where streetracen neverstops and wheelys go4 miles Posts: 1,238 iTrader: (0)	what its like? i would like 2 see u in my shoes... what i have is really bad because if i dont treat it now i will die in at year... what if u you where 20 and the doctor said im sorry but your have canser but its not like a lot of other cancers, this is an aggressive type of cancer... and you go ok, what is it then???? then the doctor said you only have one year to live, you might not see 21. And the two of you are just sitting there... i said what the fuck can i do because i dont wanna die yet... then the doctor said you have 2 do chemo therapy and you have 2 start 2day... i was in my work truck i just got out of work like i had no clue it was like this.. think about that.. so then he told me I have three options... 1. live your life with this cancer and start getting really really sick and die at 20/21... 2. put a bullet in your head... or 3. your give one hole year of your life, and ill make you fine... i went with option 3... but what i didnt know is how fucked up this chemo shit really is... like this shit is bad really bad. all i can do is just sit back and relax and go for a long ass ride for the next year... but its not really a year it everyday. Everyday i wake up in madd pain, everyday i feel like shit, everyday i just sit here all by my self in my room and think about everything, im by my self, imagine living every second of the day like that? like if you asked me what 2day is i would tell u i dont know? if your asked me what time its is? i would say it dont matter 2 me.. if you asked me the month.. i would have 2 stop and think really really hard and the only reason i could tell u is because of what stage im in with the chemo... and on bad on the bad days i ask my self is this worth it? but i say yes it is just cuz i wanna make my life that much better when i get over all this... look at it like this... could you look back in your life and remember an entire year of events? like every second of a year... no probably not but i will... this is my life for the next year i have no job, i cant go out, i cant sleep i have 2 sit here and go on a long ass ride... theres nothing else i can do... this changed my whole prospective on life... this shit shows you/me how small we really are... like i look at life totally different now... and its like i can change myself in the best kinda way but we all have 2 change cuz this shit is no joke... like 2 wake up everyday thats good but not for me for all of us.. the world need 2 wake up and see how small we really are and see what we are doing because we are really fucking up this world and its getting worse and worse everyday... and no one sees how we fucked up this world is bad look at all the shit we do... but its going 2 get worse if we dont stop and change for the best... no one really know what its like in my shoes, all i can do is stop and talk with people and it really could make a difference's... hit me up if u want... this is a B20MEET http://www.b20vtec.com/forums/meets-...-s-cancer.html hip-hop Last edited by bug b16b; 05-21-2009 at 04:20 PM.

05-19-2009, 05:38 PM	#2 (permalink)
hondablues Senior Member Join Date: Jun 2008 Posts: 2,091 iTrader: (3)	get better soon bro __________________ My 2000 Teggy for sale check it.http://www.b20vtec.com/forums/honda-...-gsr-body.html

05-19-2009, 05:38 PM	#3 (permalink)
joking4life Senior Member Tournaments Won: 16 Join Date: Dec 2006 Location: YES SIR!!!!!!!!!!! Posts: 7,444 iTrader: (8)	damn!!!! sorry to hear hope u get better....... keep ur head uppppp __________________ aim- joking4life email- joking4life@yahoo.com

05-19-2009, 08:35 PM	#4 (permalink)
melvin Senior Member Join Date: Jun 2005 Location: YONKERS Posts: 2,286 iTrader: (0)	hope u get better soon man and ur not alone just talk to the force who has given u ur life just belive that this is only a test youll pas it if u study and do well belive it+ __________________ myspace.com/odmph

05-19-2009, 09:04 PM	#7 (permalink)
Critic4Du3ce Senior Member Join Date: Jul 2008 Location: Rikers, Woodburne, BKLYN STAND UP Posts: 1,813 iTrader: (0)	damn man hope everything works out for you __________________ CRITIC: 1 man army & I thro that shit up like Im bulimic.. Im all about ME, not WE, nor US...So all yall Jus got thrown on the FUKD bus!!.. Dont doubt me, be about me..Or Ill jus fuk ya day up..BOOM NOW KING ME

05-19-2009, 09:11 PM	#9 (permalink)
melvin Senior Member Join Date: Jun 2005 Location: YONKERS Posts: 2,286 iTrader: (0)	bump for bug b16b my prayer is with you and i think this thread should be a sticky I hope everything turns out good and for you to keep in contact with us as much as possible If there is anything I can do please let me kno and if you dont mine what type of cancer do you have? you can pm me with the answer if u want bro if not then thats koo too id just like to do some searching on it Keep ur head up and keep on fighting for you and also those who love you __________________ myspace.com/odmph Last edited by melvin; 05-19-2009 at 09:20 PM.

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